Going back to pre-1999

1999 is the year the slide started. My moral slide I mean.

I was idealistic, demanding on myself and never asking for favours from anyone. I get what I deserve.

Things changed when I decided to resign from Tata taking a chunk of money, hurting the senior managers. There was the deception of BLC, there was the wasted times in Shanghai fighting and plotting to grab money from somebody. Looking at everyone I was thinking of how to make money out of that person. But the real me was shining out through all the self imposed degradations.

The real me is doing what is needed, doing the best, working more than anyone else. Being the best, not being the higher earner.